I logged on here after what felt like weeks and I decided to look at the threads that were posted in that seems interesting and ended up down a rabbit hole...

This was a bad bad rabbit hole.

I found myself reading old arguments between users on here with me and old VMs...

and feeding into my sadness and depression...

into my belief of being unwanted and a glitch...

Despite all my successes and what I have overcome...

I feel like I am a broken child tonight.

It also doesn't help that I was a victim of an unwanted sexual encounter earlier this year and I can't really tell anyone because I am ashamed and I dont know who he is other than his first name and that he stunk real bad..

But yeah..

this is a quite a big rabbit hole.