I must release the hold that I have on the balloons of my past,
Each balloon -- soaring up into the sky --
is another friend I have lost to pointless drama.


I close my eyes,
dreading the truth,
hoping that maybe -- just maybe --
this is all just a figment of my mind.


Yet when I blink back my tears,
and my sight returns,
I see the world bright and clear --
It's true and real --
I have...

I don't understand this hatred
The hatred that you hold.

I don't see what I have done
To deserve your rays of hate.

What I don't see
is what wrong I might have done,
And you for some reason -- one I can not bring myself to ponder --
Bombard me with reasons that do not matter,
Ones that have no relevance.

But does hatred ever really make sense?

You hate cause you hate,
Not because who you...

It's so real now. I go online to see the summary/synopsis on the episode from last night, and on the cast Meloni no longer is listed as a main cast :/

Makes me sad. I hope he comes back one day. I hear he left to make a business in Film.

The guy that I like is very sweet. He's only a month older than me, and in a higher grade. I saw him on Tuesday when I was volunteering at the school -- he volunteers as well. Not only is he cute, but he's smart, nice, and for some reason, he is always smiling. I don't think that I have ever seen this boy with a frown on his face, and to be honest, I don't ever want to see that beautiful smile of his replaced with a frown, because I like him, and I like it when he is happy, because it makes me happy...