Do any of you remember when I went to the doctor because of my muscle pain and such? Remember how I got my blood drawn?

I have yet to hear back about results and so I asked my mother, "Ma, have you heard anything about my blood test?" and she said that unless I have twenty five dollars, I'm going to have to wait until she has the money to pay for an appointment. So uh, they won't tell her over the phone? I mean, really... why do we have to make an appointment just to hear...

I feel like my mother doesnt understand me. I feel like she doesnt even try to! She thinks she can change me.

why cant she just accept me the way I am and look?

She, maybe unknowingly, hurt me inside.

How can she think I don't love her??? I do! She says I dont show it.

My god.

Why does she always get to me!?