mmm I really want him...

I love his electric blue eyes. I love his smile. I love the shape of his face. I love the sound of his voice. I love his nature of being. He is such a gentleman. I love his hugs; they make me feel warm and protected.

Too bad, we're just friends. He knows how I feels, and I know he doesn't feel the way I do. At least, we're still friends, I suppose. But my heart is aching for more.

I just remembered something. Today at lunch, my friends and I started singing "Unfaithful" by Rihanna. I smiled, and trust me, it's been weeks since I smiled and meant it. Who knew hanging with people you can be yourself with actually helps with depression? I know now. Anyways, it was so awesome. One of my friends had commented that it was so cool how we all started singing like a mini choir. Another one noted that one of us were off tune but that didnt matter to me.
...

Today during lunch, the guy that I like and I talked a lot(it was just him and I).
He was looking at me with his beautiful blue eyes as I ate my pizza. I was nervous lol. he was like "What? Is it not normal to stare while you eat your pizza? Is it making you nervous??" when I nodded, chuckling, yes. He smiled softly at me. XD

Oh, a carrot landed by me, and he jokingly said "I wish someone would throw a carrot at me!" and I picked the thrown carrot piece...

One of these days, I will tell him.

Telling him that I love him, have for a year by now, could either start something good, or make our friendship awkward. But I don't think I can pretend anymore.

I love you.

Very much.

I want to run my hands through your hair.

I want you to hold my hand.

I want you to hug me.

I want to feel your warmth against me.

I want my first kiss to be with you.

I want you.