Eh I am suddenly in a terrible mood. All this fighting and crap going on these past months is taking a toll on me. I hate fighting. Especially with members who I am close to. Seriously, it just hurts me. My mood went from cheerful to being sad.

I don't get it. Why do we all let little things get to us? Why can't we be a family again? Why??? Please can we not just learn to forgive and forget?

I used to come on here because...

My friend just told me on facebook that he has to go the hospital because he has cuts everywhere. I thought he had stopped hurting himself, but apparently he hasn't. It makes me mad and sad at the same time. Mad for him making me so sad and upset about what could happen if he does not quit hurting himself. And sad because he's obviously troubled and nothing I do helps him. Nothing I say can take away the pain he feels.

I feel helpless, like I cant do anything to make his pain less....

It hurts to know that the friendship I had with her has ended. It hurts whenever I pass her in the halls, and we just stare at each other, like we weren't best friends until a month ago. It hurts. It hurts how fast I was replaced. It hurts so much. I know it shouldn't hurt as much as it hurts. I know I shouldn't have allowed myself to get close. Nothing good ever happens to me. Nothing. And when something good does happen to me, it never manages to stay for long. Never ever. I am just not that lucky....